The Results are in...

Drumroll please................
I got the results of my MRI yesterday... the call came at about 9:15 last night...

I do NOT have PVNS! Let me just say that again.... I do not have PVNS....anymore... it's gone... my knee looks good... there is some arthritis, but that's expected... but no PVNS... no PVNS... really? Really.

The written report of the MRI had noted a cyst that was suspected to be the result of a meniscus tear... which... I was told last night...to someone who is unfamiliar with PVNS and the surgery I had would appear like a cyst... It's not. It is a small amount of scar tissue from where my doctor had made the incision through my meniscus to get to the lining of the knee....


so....................... do a cartwheel... dance.... jump up and down and join me in shouting from the rooftops.... I no longer have PVNS!!!! Yeah yeah yeah!!!

It was emotional for me to learn this... I broke down a little...and have cried a bit today in thinking about this and what it means... I feel like I have been given something back... I feel like I can stop fearing PVNS and fearing what the future held for me physically... I don't have to wonder about what limitations I will have and if what I am doing is damaging my knee or worsening something that might be there.... it means I can .... let go of this... I can say goodbye to something that was soooo difficult for me. PVNS hurt me physically... emotionally....mentally...and spiritually... It took such a huge toll on my life.. on me... on my confidence... on believeing in myself and feeling optimistic....

I think letting go of this will be a process for me... one of my friends asked me today, if I believe it... if I trust the doctor's report.... and with hesitation... I answered... "I will..." It really is hard for me to believe... that something that impated my life for so long really is something I can take out of the equation....it's good news... REALLY good news. Really really good news!

(Jill, I got your voicemail and will call you soon...I have to work tonight... although...when I will be heading home here... it will only be 9 p.m. there... maybe I will try to call you on my way home!)